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| I don`t fucking know anymore... I just don`t know what to do anymore. I want to crawl into a fucking hole and just bawl my eyes out. I`m becomming more and more depressed again. I know I am. I don`t want to do anything anymore. I barely even listen to my C.I.C.A.D.A. CD anymore, and everyone knows how much I fucking love them. I just want to sleep all the time, or I just want to cry... this is the first time that I`ve cried in a while. A real long while. I just wanna give up. On everything I honestly do. I just don`t think a lot of things are fucking worth my time and effort anymore. I feel like my fucking heart is shattered into a fucking million pieces that i cant put back to fucking gether again. And thats sad.. I've never been this low before. | | |
| My heart seems to grow fonder everytime i think of you. In all my chaos your the one i turn to. I confess all my fears to you. All your secrets you confess i'll bury down inside of me. I wanna tell you so badly that i love you.. i really do, but with everything you're going through it'll just be too much for you to bare. I'll sit in the background waiting fo rmy time for you to be mine.. if that will ever come. I'd treat you like you were gold. Give you anything your heart wanted. Sadly you cannot see the beauty inside of me, because you have so much misery in sight. Let me keep you sane in all this confusion. Please let me make you mine? | | |
| Useless fucking ramblings on no sleep.
No matter what i cannot win. Trying to be what everyone expects me to be, the perfect daughter,friend,lover.Asking myself ''Can i keep up?'' Slowly my worlds crashing into the fucked up thing we call reality. Fucking up one more thing in my life. Keeping a smile on my face so everything seems to be okay. While everything is in perfect order no chaos in my world. Keeping to myself in my room away from everything thats so fucked up. Can i be at your beck and call? While when i need you... you are no where in sight? Working myself to exhaustion worrying if im perfect enough to please every single on. Please stretch me thin so i can escape from this nightmare? Yes, i'm ashamed of who i am at times. But arent we all? You're wearing me out darling let me grasp everything thats new. Saying to myself i'm going to escape... escape from what? Myself? You have me wrapped around your finger. Whound so tight i cant think clearly. You're voice is so beautiful when you speak i fall dumb to everything but you. My sanity is no longer mine to call my own. You call all the shots, I'm yours to break; do what you will with me. | | |
| My second xanga.. yeah.. haha im lame | | |
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